Let me start by saying, I’m not a big fan of qualifiers or qualifying statements. I’m not here to prove my worth, brag about what I’ve been through and say “YOU can to!”. What I do want to do is share my experience. I have found that in my life, anxiety, anxiousness, and depression are sometimes a very present feeling. I have also found that when I enter these states, I get “running thoughts”. Ideas, worries, thoughts about how to outmaneuver my impending doom that has no

I'm going to tell you something that you most likely are going to disagree with. This changes nothing. You are still wrong. I know that you, good reader must be thinking, I'm open minded, I have a fair grasp of self awareness, I'm not defensive. You are right. Nor, should I say, am I trying to "rattle your cage" or unseat some deep truth that you've held on to. I'm just saying that you're breathing wrong, it's shortening your life and happiness, it's feeding into your anxiety

I joined the Colorado Army National Guard in 2009 and had my twenty second birthday while completing 11/C infantry mortarman training at Fort Benning, GA. I applied for the Routt County Sheriff's Office shortly after basic training, and my career in law enforcement and the military began. Life was busy! Drill weekends with the National Guard at an armory three hours away from home, twelve hour graveyard shifts in the jail, all the while spending as much time as I could with m